Letter from Ernest Paulin to Frederick Paulin, 11 June 1912
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There is only one P.O. in Ilford for money matters, if your people have any others on their list they are sub offices and not absolutely official.
June 11th 1912
Ilford E means East London or Essex 39 Audrey Road
Ilford, E (or Essex)
My Dear Fred
I received your letter of the 23rd ulto by first post this morning + for the £5 P.O. I cannot thank you too much – your reply to my letter of the 30th April if it had been answered favourably to my suggestion contained therein by return of Post instead of some time afterwards I should not have made any of use of it for that purpose, subsequent events have proved that it would have been a futile effort to get on again with the assistance of my two big girls.
I hope you have a careful a/c of the money you have so generously sent me + which has been at all times better than Doctor’s Medicine. Please forget altogether that I am utterly friendless + terribly alone as far as any unwelcome tax upon your charitable intentions are concerned. I am quite resigned to my condition of helplessness. I merely asked for a loan which provided you had obliged me with, after all would as I say not have been used for the original purpose I intended, so that there is no harm done – I will write you again to morrow but am scribbling this in response to your request to answer (or rather) acknowledge promptly
Yours affectionately Brother E. Paulin
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Please do not take anything other than my misery that may lead to my remarks being construed other than my sincerest admission of the God sent obligations I am under to you. I have been ordered away from everything + everybody for months past, but am still a prisoner with only my active head + horrible reflections on what a fool I have been. I never dreamt that I should break down so entirely as I have done.
Kind Love